Weighted Leaves

I can’t help it I feel all
the weight of each leaf holding on, the thoughts
of doubt, ridicule the dreams that haven’t
found their way through those memories left behind
the constant worry
am I doing this right my furrowed brow my head full
the blurred transition between what

Actually is and what can change for good
sometimes I want to scream out loud “How cursed!”
I feel to feel so much
some minutes I just want a break from the whispers
good or bad it is hard to get a full breath
it is hard to get rest it is hard
to keep standing up for my heart and offering what it feels to those who hurt

I will continue to notice continue to feel continue
to wander through the tree top leaves and find
the beauty in their connection see the light peeking in
seeing each effort spilling leaf as part of a whole
somehow this makes me less likely to be confused about why
I feel so weighted down and need to cry
to lighten this weight sometimes

WPC- Shine; SDC- 11 of 15

Inside each of us is the ability
to chose to feel over run
streaked with all the emotional debris of of the world
that will act like a film coating our true selves
and weighs each moment down or we can look within
slow our breath and find a reflection
that speaks our truth that shares the light
from within shimmering bright and reminds us how
to shine from the inside out
within this chaotic world